Faced with the challenge of providing semi-interesting content that also balances out my desire to share trivial information with the 8 people that read this blog (I know, my readership is growing!) I have a slew of posts queued up and partially written. The problem is I think they all suck. They are either too boring, or too disjointed, or have simply not yet reached their full potential.
I’m having a similar problem with my Big Idea as well.
(my wife does not read this blog, but if she picked today to start – thank you – now stop)
I am working every week on the Big Idea and have until my anniversary (November 6) to really pull it together (though myriad opportunities exist beyond that day that would be good reveal choices as well… but I digress…) Almost every day I dedicate some time to working on the Big Idea and some of the early feedback is good but comes with the same comment. I’m too aware of what’s going on. I can’t JUST BE. As such, the work appears forced, and while technically “not bad”, it’s not great either. And I really want it to be great.
These not-quite-ready-to-post posts are technically “not bad”, but they’re not great either (much like this one). Do I need to just let them BE? Do I just let the work take whatever shape it takes, knowing that even my worst is far better than a lot of what’s out there now (and getting more attention)? Artists – really true and great creators of amazing works of art – are much better at this than I am. Maybe that’s why I have a full time job working for a software company. Maybe I can’t handle the truth!
If I wasn’t so lazy I’d research some fascinating psychoanalytical bullshit about self doubt and it’s negative snowballing affect on something something. It would all just sum up with something like “quit-yer-bitchin” and “suck-it-up-buttercup”, and I can’t really argue with that. So maybe I’ve just had a bad week, and I am tired, and after a glass (or two) of Shriaz and a good night’s sleep something takes shape with one of these orphaned posts and it just BECOMES…
…and 9 of us have a good laugh.